They say college changes a person.. i don’t want to believe its true. Like my education and view point on life. yeah i want them to change and i want to succeed in the things i set out to do but i guess i feel like im leaving everything i am behind doing this.
COllege puts everything you believe in in your life to a test. Only 3 weeks in and im scared.. im scared of losing her.. but i dont know if its because of college or what. Because lately she has brought back her friend and i just cant do it. I know its wrong of me to feel like way but i just cant. there are to many damn stings connecting all 4 of us together in the most fucked up way i couldnt possibly begin to deal with it all. i mean her being around alone is one thing but she brings in him. and i just cant. For my girl and for me.. ugh… am i a horrible person for feeling this way? cause i feel like i am… I feel like im taking everything from you.
I constantly ask myself if im worth it. cause these feelings i have for her are crazy. Im happy with her. I don’t question her loyalty, or feel like i should be worried.. but i feel.. no i know i scare her.. i know she is terrified of me finding someone else. me changing and not loving her the way i do.. i know she is scared. But does she trust me like i trust her?
My mom says im depressed and i honestly believe her i mean i just had THE BEST night this week. and now im sitting here in front of my laptop wanting to cry…What has happened to me? and where do i go now? I dont feel like im good enough for anyone anymore these days, not even myself at times. I fake being who they want me to be alot because i know their all worried. Im not suicidal or anything but im shutting off… tell me where do you turn from here?
This is actually a really cool videa.
Doctor Who and the song Handlebars by Flobots
I know what you’d say if you saw me right now. You’d tell me that life is precious, that it’s not worth it. But that’s the point; you’re not here. You can’t remind me that I have my mum and dad, that I have Mickey, that I have my baby brother Tony. I have Torchwood and so much to live for, but you…
FINALLY WATCHING THE NEW DOCTOR WHO EPISODE!!!
And it turns into Water on Mars case 2 because the Doctor obviously knew he would get elected but he also knows what happens as a result. So he happens to be in town when its going on and he’s like
because he’s really not supposed to change anything but god how could he leave the American people to that fate?
So he’s running around like
and just before the winner is announced runs up going
and in a twisted set of events accidentally becomes the president of the United states.
Day 2. FAvorite companion…
Rose Tyler for sure!! not only is she absolutely GORGEOUS!! She is Funny and I just loved her with the Doctor. She cared so much not only for the Doctor but for EVERYONE everywhere she went.. she was understanding and just amazing… My favorite companion.. and i really miss her :( (hope they bring her back somehow.. with 10.2 c: that would be FREAKING AMAZING!!!)
David Tennat For sure!! I was a lil sketchy on him at first and didnt think id love him. But he REALLY grew on me.. I cried when he left :( By far the best Dr yet!! Loved him!!!